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And quietly she crys in the corner. Being called selfish, worthless, useless. She broke.. She held on for so long, but her strength just gave out. As she crys in that corner she slowly loses herself. She falls deep into a dark abyss of loneliness, brokenness, and despair. She does everything for everyone but gets broken down in return. And that my dear is why she can't trust anyone anymore.

I feel like I am locked up in a cage. A long time ago someone clipped my wings. No matter how hard I try I will never be able to fly away. I feel like I was thrown in the ocean with an anchor wrapped around my leg. I sink faster afraid I'll drown, struggling to breath but alive somehow. Breathing in the water, my lungs on fire, but never able to end the suffering. I feel like I am trapped in a dark void. Not able to see a way out. Walking endlessly into the abyss, but getting no where. I feel numb....

Isolated, all alone. I don't know what is wrong. But I'm trying. I'm crying out but no one sees. Is there something wrong with me. I'm trying. I don't know what to do. I feel lost, so very blue. But no one sees, I'm trying. I've locked myself up in a cage. My mind is full of sad and rage. I'm done trying. I'm trapped inside my own mind. People they are so very blind. But I quit trying.

slowly drowning                making no sound                                 running out of time. I open my mouth to scream.                            but faces just pass me by.                                                       I am silently crying inside. I hope death takes me quick.                              Death is the only one I can rely on                                                                    To save me from this pain.

There is a dark void in my mind. It's overwhelming and I can't hide. I locked myself away from everyone. I can't seem to be happy anymore, I have tried. I know it makes you angry that I can't seem to smile. I know you hate it that I stay sad. But when you scream at me to just be happy. It makes it even worse than before. And when you scream at me that I have nothing to be sad about. I die a little inside. I know my problems may seem little to you. But in my mind it feels like the world is crushing me. I know it seems like I just don't want to try. And I know no one can really understand what goes on in my mind. I need a little bi

I don't matter, unless you need to vent. I don't exist, unless you're alone. I'm not important, unless you need something. You ignore me, until I am the only person who will listen. Is that my only purpose here? Just to wait until you need something? What about me? Who do I talk to? Who is there for me? Who can I be with when I am all alone? My problems I guess aren't as bad as yours? I can only last a little while longer. I am already feeling worthless, unimportant, tired, alone. If I died would you miss me? No, I would be replaced.

Death knocks on my door. "What was the meaning of this life?" "Just to die" he replied.

I was wearing a long t-shirt and jeans. I didn't ask for it. I wasn't wearing for it. But he still did it. I didn't have it as bad as many others. But it still happened. In front of people. In public. I was wearing a long t-shirt and jeans. Nothing was showing. No skin but my arms. Covered in dirt and grime from work. I didn't ask for it. I wasn't wearing for it. But he still did it. I was wearing a long t-shirt and jeans.......

Stuck in a loop. Wanting to write but not knowing what. Typing, Deleting, over and over. I hit a wall and I can't break it down. I tried to climb it but it is to high, and I can't go around. Stuck in this battle with my own brain. Nothing I do makes the wall go away. This writer's block is a tough little thing. I know what I want but it comes out the wrong way. Stuck in this infinite battle with my own mind. As I sit here slowly dying inside. As I stare at this blinking cursor it gives me anxiety. I write what comes to mind, but now my mind is blank. So I sit here Trying hard to knock this wall down.  

My mind has become dark. The voices begin to scream. I try to stay happy and positive. But negativity still stays the same. I am fighting these inner demons. But they keep getting stronger. They keep telling me I am worthless. That no one will care if I am gone. My mind has become a dark place. I no longer see the light. I can't do this anymore. The demons they have began their attack.